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I had a really kinda pretty bad week.

Need a break. I really need a break.
Been feeling too stressed up and pressurized lately that all i do is keep breaking down.
I wasn't like this before. I wasn't this weak, i wasn't this fragile.
I was definitely much stronger. What happened to me?
Everything that i thought was okay didn't turn out okay. Definitely not okay.

Birthday started off pretty well, with totally no expectations to being surprised. And to being disappointed over again, same situation. To being pissed by someone.

Maybe i'm the only one who always sees things, relationships so importantly, making me so vulnerable to getting myself hurt.

But what made me upset the most is about my family. I thought you all wouldn't do it again already, but yet you did. How am i to know you all won't keep doing it every single year? I don't know. I'm mad, yes i am. Am i really asking for too much? Is a dinner that difficult? Thank you for leaving me alone to eat dinner, thank you for letting me sing myself a happy birthday song and thank you for letting me make wishes and blow candles all alone. Alone.

I'm done with birthdays. Really.